Trouble is coming

Life never seems to go the way you want it to. You work really hard to accomplish something and then all of a sudden a gust of wind takes it all away. Trouble on the home front is going to weed out the good guys and the bad guys in my life soon. I will soon see who my real friends and family are. Prayer is a big part of my life and right now to who ever checks out my blog, I need prayer bad now. Prayer for wisdom and tact. Prayer for strength and good timing. Prayer to remain firm and to cover myself enough to take care of myself. Once this train gets moving there will be no turning back. Hopefully, I am doing what God has been telling me to do and not out of anger or any other emotion. I feel the decision is a good and well thought out decision but I am very scared.

How about my timing?

Some days I am extremely motivated. I have so many things to do and not enough time to do it in. Some days I do not want to lift a finger, I struggle to get things done. I just want to do nothing. I think everyone has these kinds of days. How do you get through these I don't want to do anything days? I find as I start to get into the swing of things my motivation starts to come back. However, at times, like now I am discouraged. Here I go into my pity party. I graduated in May of this year. I sent out my resume before I even graduated hoping to have something by the time I graduated. I guess it wasn't God's timing. Well, what is God's timing? It is coming into the end of July and I still have no work. I am volunteering at the shelter I did my internship at and love it but, it is not full time, I am not being paid, and at this rate I will not have the necessary hours to get my licence in 3 years. What am I doing wrong? I am getting to the point of throwing away a thought of a licence and just trying to get a job. My husband and I spent two days this weekend putting together a KSA, revamping my resume, and creating a new cover letter to fulfull a Federal job as a Readjustment Counseling Therapist in NY, NY. I hate the cold. I feel more desperate than I want to be. I want to be in Texas, where it is warm-here it is, I want. I want, whatever happend to what God wants and God's timing? If I want to live according to God's purpose for me I have to be willing to bend and be uncomfortable. God has plans for me. 'For I know the plans I have for you, declares the lord, plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11. I wish I can see those plans, that future and hope that God has given me so abundantly. I want it now, not later and in my timing, not God's. I am fighting with the thoughts that God is in control, not me.

God's Peace

Another day, another post. There are things that happen in life that are not anticipated or expected. It is those things that can cause us stress. I know for myself personally I tend to get worried when things are not going the way I planned or anticipated. But then I realize if I am worried then I am not trusting in God to take care of me. I am relying on myself. There is a book out called When People are Big and God is Small:Overcoming Peer Pressure, Codependency, and the Fear of Man by Edward T. Welch. With this mentality, I am relying on myself and not God. Who is, in fact, the only one who will not let me down. Family, friends, and spouse are not perfect and will let me down but God is perfect and wants the best for me (Jeremiah 29:11). God is in control (a song by Twila Paris). We are to trust that promise. Trust and have contentment. We must make an active effort to be content. This does not come naturally. In Luke 3:14, John, the baptist, was telling the people how to act. John told the soldiers that questioned him to be content with their wages and not take more than was ordered by their commander. In 2 Corinthians 12:9-10, Paul writes to the Macedonians and tells them that power is perfected in weakness and that he (Paul) is content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong. What he is saying is through his weaknesses God makes him strong. In Philippians 4:11, Paul is speaking to the Jews and is telling them to rejoice (verse 4), do not be anxious (verse 6), and dwell on good things (verse 8) that you may receive God's peace (verse 9). In verse 11, Paul reminds them (the Macedonians) that he is not speaking of what he wants but from what he has learned. He has learned contentment in whatever circumstances come his way. In Hebrews 13:5, an unknown writer reminds us to "Make sure that your character is free from the love of money, being content with what you have; for He Himself has said 'I will never leave you, nor will I ever forsake you.'" You and I can count on God to make us strong when we are weak, to receive his peace when we give up our anxiety to Him, and He will never leave us nor forsake us. We must trust and be content. Give God the glory for it is His and His alone.

Routine vs. Spontaneity

Life is getting back to normal after vacation. I am getting back to my boring yet embraced routine. It is hard for me sometimes because I view routine as boring and yet I embrace it when I don't have it. The relationship I have with routine is like a love/hate relationship. I want it because it is comfortable and it helps me accomplish things I would otherwise forget however I don't like making lists and planning every little detail. I like some spontaneity. Sometime that spontaneity can be a problem. For example, I went on vacation and drove to visit my family up in the North East. It was decided to drive as far as possible and then get a hotel instead of planning where we were going to stop. Not wanting to plan I did not take in consideration the holiday traffic. When we got as far as possible we couldn't find a hotel. To make matters worse it was my fault for not having planned but I wanted spontaneity. As it ends up we drove all the way through and took power naps between driving rotations. It all turned out fine but wouldn't it have been easier to just have planned. Probably but I like spontaneity. Hence the love/hate relationship continues.

What's Happen'

What is happening on planet earth? I have been bombarded with petitions lately. Petitions for iminent domain ( the right for a private organization to take your property if they can prove something else can be built there that would be more profitable), the right to post the ten commandments in public, someone being fired because on their own time and without mentioning anything about the company they worked for wrote in the newspaper about their feelings about homosexuals, and a letter to the president about the appointment of a new Supreme Court justice. Where is everyone's common sense or how about constitutional rights? How about the right to own property without it being given to someone else? What about the right to free speech? What about the right to religion or post historical documents? What about your word? What is your word worth any more? The farther we go into allowing freedoms the more freedoms are limited. How far will it need to go to protect everyone's right? What do you think?

Christie's Comments about Blog

Wow, this is a great idea. I became interested in blogs when my brother sent me his blog address. I knew through my cable modem company I could create a web site but I thought that is too much work. Well now I have my own blog in which to make comments on. Hopefully I won't offend anyone but if I do send me your comments. I want to hear what you have to say.