Music

My life has been literally turned upsided down and I am still trying to deal with it. As I have been putting my cubicle together my next door neighbor reminds me of how grief and loss affect every part of your life. As I thought about that I realize how right she is. I specifically have had a lot of loss. I have lost a relationship, a home, a life, and anything I could depend on. I have to start over and it is not fun. I have to redefine my life and what it is that I want to put into it through the use of my time. I get to decide, without feelings of guilt or obligation, what I want to do as I live my life here in the real world. As I was looking at my past normalcy struggling with trying to find something of my previous life I could hold onto as an anchor to my new life, today I found it, it wasn't lost but for some reason I was. That normalcy was God, my beliefs. Although my church here is not the same as the church I had in my previous life, God is the same. My question became how can I access the God I knew in my last life to my life now. My anchor during hard times has always been comfort in Christian music. Well there are not a lot of good comtemporary Christian radio stations where I live however, Thank God, the radio station I loved in Texas is also on the internet. I have my connection again, that need for peace and love through music. It is just a start to my new life and it is still scary but it is one anchor I know I can hear and feel God through reminding me that he is with me.